help a brother out

I'm from Memphis Tennessee I'm sending you this email to ask you if you would do a "help a brother out" segment on your page um basically dedicated to me I really need some motivation in fulfilling my dreams I've always wanted to act and model and do TV entertainment but I've let my insecurities hold me back. a lot of people believe the only women go through insecurities but guys go through it too. Growing up my mother has always provide for me but on a mental level I've always struggled and lacked motivation dedication and ambition all my life, in August at my church after a performance I did with my sisters a man came up to me that I have never seen before and he told me that God has not forgotten about me he told me that this is my season and he told me that those desires that I have I will have them then just a month ago a lady from a totally different church that I've never seen before told me that God is going to put me before great men but I keep messing it up because I won't get out of my own way can you give me some advice I don't need you to sugar coat anything I'm looking for tough love I have the desire 2 become a fitness model I have a desire to become an actor I have a desire to even do reality TV this is all I think about everyday every since i was about 13 years old I would go in my room I would lock my door I would put my headphones on and I will blast my music and I would dance, act, lol MuchLuv I would really dream and fantasize we're I wanna be I'm 21yrs old now I have let insecurities and people block me, people getting my head, people that I once called friends, and even though my family believes in me they can sometimes hold me back because of the things I over hear them say, I'm constantly being judged by even my family, I've been stuck in this hole for about 3 years but now I'm starting to believe in myself next month I'll be 22 years old I want to reach my goals while I'm still young please give me advice I'm just looking for encouragement I am well aware of that I have to do the work myself and I have to believe in myself but to have someone else to care is a plus and hopefully some other guys out there listening to you and reading my message will be encouraged in the process "HELP A BROTHER OUT"