Stuffing While Stuffed

Ugh. I definitely overdid it today, so apologies for all the moaning. First went out with friends to lunch, then I had a dinner to go to. It was take as much as you want and I got buzzed on cocktails and ended up having to undo my belt afterwards on the way home. But then I stopped at sonic and ended up getting two cheeseburgers, an ice cream sandwich, and a shake. Thought I was full but then I couldn't help it and got McDonald's. I was so full but I'm just so greedy now that I just did it and got two big macs and chicken sandwich. I just had to. I fucking ate too much though and at 8:25 I ended up blowing out my button. But ugh, when I felt my fat belly shift forward and surge through the opening in that shirt it made me want to just eat even more. It felt so good to keep cramming burgers down my throat even after basically another two meals. My belly's literally blowing up, but I can't stop eating cheeseburger after cheeseburger they taste so good! God just looking at myself with my shirt unbuttoned halfway through the video I'm really noticing how massive I am now. I have a full fledged gut now that's only getting bigger, because I can't say no to friends who want to get dinner, and then I can't stop myself from getting even more food after we're done. My gut feels like a literal beach ball and terrible part is I just want it even bigger. I just need to keep overfeeding it even more than I already do. I want more burgers, pizza, and take out as I just keep ballooning up heavier and heavier. I'm literally the heaviest I've ever been now. My gut has never been this round in my entire life and I just Keep. On. Eating. I get a little worried seeing how far its sticking out now while everyone's ready for beach season, but at the same time it just makes me want to go and shovel more food in my face and make it twice as big. I think I'm not going to be in control ever again, I can't stop myself from overeating every chance I get, I can't stop this belly from getting even fucking fatter. Ugh, I don't care anymore, I don't care how fat it gets, how round it swells, how far it hangs over my waistband. I'll just lean forward and swallow mouthful after mouthful down as it forces my legs apart. Fuck I was so full then and now all I want to do is be just as stuffed as that as soon as possible. I can't stop thinking about food all the time. I need to just eat everything until I fucking explode. I'm going to just keep blowing up fatter until I'm morbidly obese because I can't fucking stop eating. What do you think? Am I seriously getting too fat? Am I overdoing it too much now? Or should I just keep forcing down meal after meal and blow up until my belly can't even fit in the camera frame anymore as I eat a burger off my gut like a table? Just keep going out for more food and belly rubs for me until my gut bulges into the steering wheel?