Watch me shrink! 1. day and explanation

Ok, I'm really bad at editing so I'm going to write all the information in the description below :) I currently weigh 69.5 kilos (153.2 lbs) and my height is 165 cm so I'm pretty short. I have never weighed so much in my entire life. It comes as a shock- I was really scared to step on a scale the last few weeks but I couldn't guess the drop would be this big and painful. I NEED to lose 9 kilos (19.8 lbs) so my goal would be 60.5 kilos (133.3 lbs). The thing that's stopping me is a really bad relationship with food. I have entered the binging and purging circle and I'm doing it absolutely consciously just because I know it's the easiest way... I have always been quite active and a bit more athletic looking but lately I've been struggling with a depression and it has led me to all the wrong tracks and has entirely ruined the balance of my body. I've read so much about healthy lifestyle, calories etc and I have tried some extreme diets. But the result is just awful- I've gained it all back with extra-ugly cellulite. Oh, and when it comes to sweets.. With chocolate, I can even hold myself back, but man, when it comes to bisquits or morning cereals, I'm a total junkie. Other than that- I'm quite healthy! Anyways, summer is coming way too fast and I only have a bit more than a month to reach my goal.. If this video blogging thing will help me (as I've seen it helping manymany others), then I'm willing give it a try. Lots of sun! :)